| | A moment of clarity – as my dad revives his study of the Ancient Greeks, I am once again filled with the overwhelming motivation to do my own equivalent. What is more important than the pursuit of knowledge? In this world, everything is transient – good food, good company, good times – eventually everything ends. As each day passes, we slowly erode our ability to find that child-like wonder in simple things. Why do some studies show that the rich are less happy? Perhaps because the activities that used to bring much happiness become commonplace – over time, something special loses significance in repetition. No, I won’t let that happen to me. Learning something new each day is the best way to stave off this exhaustion with the world. My mother used to tell me that people can take away your possessions and time takes away beauty and health, but no one can ever take away the knowledge and experience you accumulate in your head!
Reflecting back on my first term at Oxford, I realize that perhaps, I didn’t do enough. Sure, I finished all my problem sets and essays, kept up with the pace of the lectures, and managed to do a substantial amount of work in preparation for collections. But did I really internalize the value of what I learned? No, I admit my own failing. Perhaps I was too overwhelmed with adjusting, or kept on looking back to more familiar times.
No regrets, no looking back! That has been my core philosophy, and I intend to follow through wholeheartedly. For me, this new semester – this New Year – will reflect a marked change.
I study because I enjoy studying. I read because I enjoy reading. I go to lecture because I enjoy going to lecture. I won’t merely go through the motions because it is the expected behavior of a student, but rather, beneath it all, I fundamentally want to. No, I refuse to make studying a chore. I refuse to fall into the easy pattern of complaining and worrying.
It’s too easy to forget our original motivations when routine and obligations kick in. When I’m filling out forms and dealing with logistics for Givology, the original mission may feel sometimes obscured. But just by keeping my commitment fresh in my mind, these issues can be resolved.
After all, we are in essence what we believe.
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